Something we humans will never get use to. No matter how much we’ve seen people we love die. I remember the first person that passed away in my life was a girl name Christina that I went to school with; we were both in kindergarten when she passed away. I remember this was so confusing to me back then I was too young to understand. Now that I’m older and more aware of my surroundings and things that goes on, I’ve started to accept it!
I’m not okay with people dying; it gives me this feeling of unknown. I question myself all the time: Why do people die?
We were born knowing that one day we will die but we still don’t understand it. Whenever we think about death, we get sick to our stomach; I know I do. Just the thought of it put me in a bad mood.
I wonder all the time what happens after death. Is there an afterlife? Do we reunite with the people that we knew? What’s next after life?
I’ve lost so many people in my life that I should be okay with it but I’m not. When my dad passed away that was the FIRST time I see someone so close to me died. My father is and was my everything; sometimes words aren’t enough for me to explain the love I have for him. It’s beyond anything in this world. What I hate the most about it is the fact that the Person was a part of your everyday life, just ceased existing.
I question all the time if I give enough to everyone close to me because I know this thing call death can come knock at your door without any warning.
I guess we need to live with the idea that someday this will end. I think it’s crazy that’s going to happen but I think as Christians this shouldn’t worry us. Like my dear dad used to say, ” To God be my spirit and to the Dog be my bones”. ” A Dieu mon âme et aux chiens mon corps”. Moreover, pray that when the time come for you to go, that you are ready.
I always ask myself the question: why did death have to exist and why does it come without any warning? It’s so crazy to me! For instance, at the beginning of the year my grandmother passed away while I knew it was coming I was still devastated in the end. Even though I saw how sick she was and watched her die, the whole thing overwhelmed me. She was 87 years old so she witnessed 3 generations. Oddly, she was ready to go be with her other loves ones.
The whole point of me writing this was to see if I could make sense of what DEATH is but I still was left confuse by it.
My best advice is to always treat your love ones with kindness ❤️. This thing call life is full of unknown answers and
Xoxo 💋, Lady Sergine🌹