I’ve always thought whenever I’m in a relationship that things won’t go right. For instance, when people are so scared of everything being alright, they choose to run away from the situation.
You find yourself scared of being fully happy whether it’s the relationship you are in, your work, anything good that might be going in your life. I’ve always found myself thinking of the negative side of everything new I’m about to start.
For instance I can already see myself loosing the job just because it’s too good to be true. If it’s a relationship finding reasons why it won’t work, I’ll say me and him are totally different people.
I think I have a fear of everything going right and myself being truly and fully happy! I’m in this situation where I doubt it, I feel like I’m not even giving it a chance.
When you’ve been disappointed so many times, you start having this fear of everything not going right. It’s seems like you’ve been in this roller coaster called life where nothing ever happens as you wish but it finally happened; your fear of happiness won over. They say the energy you put out that’s what you’ll receive. I do think it’s true. If you have been praying to find something great, like to be happy within yourself and every area of your life, when you do please hold on to it. Because at one point in life, that was what you were wishing for.
I do think everything happens when its supposed to happen. You might be praying for this job and never got it, when God think its necessary I believe he will put it in your life. So when that does happen open your arms & accept it without any fear. Keep this in my mind that “It is MY time to be happy and prosper“.
I see so many times people that destroy their happiness because of what they’ve been through in life. They can’t seem to move pass it, just cause it has become their reality.
As an example, my relationships always end up being so horrible, that when I find something good I quickly start to find the negative side of it so I don’t have hopes or say we are not compatible without even having the chance to let it grow. I honestly analyze every little stupid thing so I can feel better. But why do this when I know it’s okay to be happy. Isn’t that what I or you hope for? Yes, we all wish to find happiness. I don’t want you guys to think finding happiness is in things only it’s also finding it within YOURSELF! I mean we even deny ourselves of knowing it.
What messes us up is when we have been through so much, when happiness comes our way. We are scared of it, our mind are trained to think it’s not for us because it’s not what we are used too. We choose to find things that keep us from accepting that HAPPINESS does exist.
I know one reason you won’t see me getting attached to anyone it’s because I’m soooo SCARED of losing them. After my dad passed away it has become my greatest Fear in life. And also people are always moving on in my life. So if I see someone is bringing joy in my life I slightly try to distance myself from them. When it does go wrong I will not be sad or hurt by it. This is called auto defense, when the first thing you do is put your guard up.
Just because your not used to it, that’s not why you shouldn’t allow yourself the pleasure of knowing happiness. We all found happiness in something but the best way to find it is in YOURSELF! So put it in your BRAIN that you deserve to know happiness. When you start to believe that you are worth it and are loved by God you’ll see that accepting happiness is the best thing ever. I choose to overcome my fear of happiness; I think it’s unfair that I deny myself the pleasure of knowing it.
Happiness is a major KEY in life, so please my dear lovebugs allow yourself that pleasure. Whenever it comes rushing through your door; open it.
I CHOOSE to be HAPPY, I hope you’ll do as well.
Lady Sergine 🌹💋