An Open Letter To My Father 

Dear Dad,       

  June 21st 2014 at 6:30 pm I lost my best friend, my dad, other half. I am seriously writing this letter to let you know how much you wrecked my world when you left. Nothing has been the same. It’s been an everyday battle, but let me reassure you, it’s slowly getting back together.

  I don’t think I ever got the chance to let you know how much I love you. Believe it or not, you were the other half of me. You taught me how to love unconditionally and forgive people. I am so grateful that every gift you have ever given has always had something to do with having a huge faith. Over the past 2 years that was the only thing that kept me going when I had no drive to even get up in the morning.

Not only is today your birthday but it’s also the day that the Lord called you home. Why ? I surely don’t know. Dad I miss you, my siblings miss you, your wife misses you , your siblings miss you, your nieces and nephews miss you, your adopted family misses you, your mom misses you, your friends and everyone that you have impacted miss you. There are days that all we do is think about all of the good times we had. Can you believe Evanie is getting married and you are not here to celebrate with her. Nonetheless, we try to not let this ruin it because we know it’s not what you would want. 

Sometimes I wonder how so many people misread you so much. They thought you were mean just because you didn’t smile as they thought you should. But in reality you were the most kindhearted person. Always there for people, even when they have betrayed you. So many people missed out on the funny person you could be . Ha, or how much you liked joking or making fun of people you love. With your tough exterior came a person with the biggest heart ever… 

Happy BIRTHDAYY my love! I love you sooo much! I thank you so much for being there for me through all of my ups and down. Sheesh I know I wasn’t the easy breezy type of child, but me and your were two peas in a pod lol. Plus I was your favorite lol. Haha ( jk maybe not )..

I know for sure you are in a better place even though I’m wishing you could still be here for my own selfish reasons. We make it our business to celebrate you everyday . Dad I really hope to become half of the person that you were ( can’t believe I’m referring to you in past tense) .

I am lucky to have been your daughter. It was legit, the best thing ever. I thank you for loving meeee so unconditionally. Because of that, I don’t need any man to validate me. I am independent because you taught me to be. I am becoming the woman that I am, because of the parents that I had. Dad, you’ve taught me so much that I am getting to understand a little bit more now . So many things you’ve told me were so true. If it wasn’t for you, I would probably be making a million mistakes at the moment. I’m not saying that I don’t make any, but it could have been worse.. THANK YOU for teaching me to believe in myself and to be self confident. Thank you for teaching me how to believe and pray . But Most of All thank you for my family!! 

Dad I wish I could hold you one last time for old time sake. 

I miss everything about you, your phone calls, our vacation together, our arguments, your advices on life, our talks, our hugs, everything man. Today we had a celebration on your name today 😘

Love you ! Rest easy angel ❤️

Your baby girl Ti-manmi (nickname from my dad) 🌹💋