I know so many of you are feeling stressed and nervous. All of us are pensive about what tomorrow will bring. I mean who isn’t? It’s the uncertainty of not knowing what tomorrow will bring that’s the most nerve-wracking. To be perfectly honest, I am not scared, but I am extremely nervous. But ultimately, whatever is meant to be will be. No matter what, there’s a daunting reality that some things are BEYOND our control.
I had big plans for 2020. I planned solo tripsand trips with friends. Which is now non-existent lol. When 2020 started I thought: man here’s to the beginning of a drama-free new decade! Then BOOM, less than 7 days into it we started the WW3 and I thought that would be my only worry for the year. As the girl who takes public transportation every day, I really thought my biggest issue would be getting blown up while on the train. Lol. New Yorkers be thinking the worst, all the while, maintaining our scheduled daily routines.
Instead, here we are 3 months later, In the midst of a global pandemic, quarantined with people we love and hate. But the striking question arises: HOW are we going to survive this?
The answer to that questions scares me because I’m worried about the outcome. There’s sooooo much to worry about. I try to stay positive and inspired .. I’ve suceeded at maintaining satisfactory positivity but, I have struggled finding the slightest bit of inspiration. My mind is racing and my palpitations have conveniently returned. The thought of what comes next has given me a series of mini panic attacks. I developed them after the passing of my father. After controlling it for the past year, it’s back…
I have been battling whether or not to stay updated or to protect my sanity and avoid it all. I want to stay on top of the news but a part me just want to silence all the noise. It just been really hard.
I wanted to check in on everyone while we are all socially distanced, to remind us all we are not alone. I also wanted to share some of the best advice I have:
•pick up a new hobby
•find joy in doing indoor activities
•Keep up with one another via communications devices to protect the ones you love but still be there.
•Love one another
•stop the racism
•Read a book
•MOST importantly pray, as much as you can.
There’s more I’d like to share with you, that helps with taking care of your mental health. Make sure to take breaks from social media from time to time. If you have been depressive before please reach out to someone because I know this can be a trigger. Ask those friends and family that you trust to check on you.
If it wasn’t for the group chats I have and those rare people who checked up on me, I don’t know what I would do. If we’re all being completely honest, I’m sure we’d all admit that this uncertainty is causing lots of anxiety and depression on a grand scale. I hate the feeling of the unknown and uncertainty, because moments like this really put me on edge. I have been trying to cope with it the best way I know how because it’s not easy.
I have suffered from insomnia for years and last year I finally got it under control. Unfortunately, ever since they’ve closed my school and work, I haven’t been able to sleep before 5 am. I am not happy about it but I know I have to find a way to get through this, just like rest of us. I am freaking out because staying at home is not my forte. I’m not a party girl but I like to go as I please . The feeling that I’ve lost control of my life, has been my tipping point.
In spite of all this, I have hope that we will be okay and survive this! My hope is that all you beautiful souls will find something to keep YOU positive and happy in this season!! It’s not going to be easy but God‘s got us !!
Love you all
Lady Sergine 💋🌹
REMEMBER to practice social distancing. Wash your hands! Be mindful to others !