How can I pick up my pen again to allow my inspirations to flow?
I have been pounding on the idea of getting back to blogging for the past few months. If we are being honest, I was uninspired. As I am in the last 2 years of my twenties, I am trying to figure things out and it hasn’t been easy. It’s a journey in itself. Let’s be real, since 2019 we have been trying to find a new normal, and that alone is overwhelming. I love blogging and filming but I hate when my work doesn’t bring me joy. Now that I am in a space in my life where I feel more inspired, we are going back to blogging.
Last year was such a roller coaster. Where can we even begin to start unpacking what 2022 brought to us? Honestly it would take months to unwind about 2022, instead we raised our glass for surviving it. I am so grateful that through it all God has kept us safe. We have lost so many in the past year it’s unbelievable. Our generation have witnessed so much. We need therapy to unwind about a global pandemic, racism, and gun violence, just to state the obvious. The world seems to be dark at times, but let’s not forget the beautiful moments that occurred last year. People always say life is all about balance, you need a little bit of both good and bad. Sometimes it is difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Our society has made it hard for people to speak up about their issues because we use everything as a way to become internet famous. In our quest to be seen as cool or whatnot, we have become inhumane. We tend to forget that they are humans too, that people make mistakes, and that no one is perfect. We all are on a journey for self-discovery.
Last year I was wondering what are my 20s going to represent for me when I reached 30. What do I want in the next chapter ?
The answers came easy; I know having children is one of the things that first came to mind. Moving out of New York is another one. I’m trying to set my root for the next part of my life. I AM LOOKING FOR MY FOREVER HOME. Career-wise what do I want to do? This question alone is such a broad one, we will expand it in another post. Shoutout to those who have it all figured out. But to those like me who are still trying to see what’s next in life, YOU GOT IT! Your journey is yours only, not for anybody to dictate. I have had people shame me because I’m not where “I should be” in their opinions. I have learned to focus on my vision and turn off the outside noises. I have reached a point of my life where I’m getting a hang of things and finding my footing; it has been such a rewarding journey. Some things are starting to make sense to me.
I am happy with my life because not too long ago someone reminded me to be proud of and kind to myself. She said to me: “ you are always cheering on everyone, telling them they are doing great. What about all of your accomplishments? It seems to me you are always downplaying yourself.”
That’s when it clicked. Because I’m not where I thought I would be, then I’m a failure but it is not TRUE. In retrospection I realized I have done a fabulous job with the cards I have been giving. I don’t think I would change a thing except for the loss of my father.
“The journey is never ending. There’s always gonna be growth, improvement, and adversity; you just gotta take it all in and do what’s right, continue to grow, and continue to live in the moment….” -Antonio Brown
This is a reminder to not give up and when life gets hard, get up and keep pushing. You don’t owe anyone anything, you owe it to yourself to achieve your dreams and be THE BEST you can be. While you’re on your way to becoming, people will question your choices, talk shit about you and that’s okay. It’s just a reflection of where they stand in life.
Here’s to 2023, the year we love ourselves even more. We are more kind and aware of our bodies. We love each other more. We create healthy boundaries, more dreams, more work on ourselves and LIVE life to the fullest. I am praying that you all experience all of the things your heart desires. Take it one step at a time. I’m rooting for you even more than I ever have.
“Aim for the sky, but move slowly, enjoying every step along the way. It is all those little steps that make the journey complete.” -Chanda Coacher
Xoxo Lady Sergine