I have been on this earth for quite some time now, and oh boy, I have learned so much about myself & others! I have learned to LOVE myself and comprehend that nothing is eternal on this earth, except memories. People come and go,mistreat, lie, die etc. I’ve learned, that I, myself, also can hurt others and do terrible things at times. That’s why for my 25th birthday, I’m making a vow to apologize, let go of certain people, and move on 🤷🏾♀️.
Also, I’ve been thinking a lot about where I stand in my life when it comes to who I want to be. I am at that point in my life where I’m okay with losing and forgiving people, and accepting and welcoming changes. Some of you might wonder about what I mean by saying “I’m okay with losing people”, so let me explain: by this, I mean I’m done trying to please or be what people want me to be. I am tired of allowing people to make me doubt myself; I’m tired of being unappreciated. I’m turning 25, I’m done trying to be what people want me to be or EXPLAINING myself.
I am okay with where and who I am. Why should I keep making people believe in me or see me for who I am? If someone doesn’t want to see the person that I am, well that’s up to that person. I am not saying that I’m perfect because ugh I’m not: I am perfectly flawed.
“Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.”— Helen Keller
I am going to be 25, which means I look forward to peace, happiness, adventures, and true/great love (yep, I said it). Most importantly, I look forward to be in a good place with the Lord.
I am done trying to be this or that for anyone. If you feel like I’ve pulled away from you, I’m sorry darling, I just feel that there’s no reason we should be friends or have any sort of relationships if you have always been pointing out my flaws. To avoid treating you like ish, distancing myself is a favor. Let’s just break those unhealthy habits … I’m tired of keeping relationships for the sake of “I’ve known you for so long.” I’m tired of forcing myself to be around anyone whom I don’t feel comfortable with.
I’m going to be a quarter of a century, which means my priorities have changed for the better. I’m trying to evolve from this petty girl that I have been.LOL. 25 is all about positivity.
I’m grateful for the people that I have in my life and I’m happy with just them. People think I’m naive when I easily allow other people to enter my life. In reality, I can remove you from my life as easily as you enter the moment you mess up; and guess what, I won’t feel guilty for it at all. By the way, I salute the courage of my mother for the times she tries to make me reopen my heart to someone.
I’m going to be 25, which means I’ve learned to stop APOLOGIZING for being the person that I am. I always try my best to let people know how I feel but in response, I mostly get hit with “you are so sensitive,” or “you are so dramatic.” What they don’t understand, it’s that I’m establishing BOUNDARIES. Even though we are the closest/ best of friends, there’s a minimum of respect I expect.
“Always be yourself, express yourself, have faith in yourself, do not go out and look for a successful personality and duplicate it.”-Bruce Lee